Defining life in a confusing World


Little Shaun, me, Isle of Skye, I was maybe 10 years old, I don't know

Little Shaun, me, Isle of Skye, I was maybe 10 years old, I don’t know

By @ShaunyGibson – Used to be @ShaunyNews

A question I always ask myself is ‘Why’ This could apply to any given situation through my history, my life or Earth’s history. As many know I love to research but I also love to research how far my own feelings define me as a 41 year old lad from Scotland. See my life was never easy but I felt it was. It is very hard to explain. Where there should have been hurt, pain and more, there was not. I sometimes challenged myself to have feelings and all along I did, I just denied myself ‘Feelings’
I told my story once and I will share it here. The reason for this article being about me and not news is because I really do hope I can get more friends, understand people better and understand our World better. The link below I did (Thanks Mel x) on Deliberate Donkay. A family member replied in the comments, kinds odd I thought at the time, the feel of the reply, but it made it more real a person in my history replying.
This is my story: http://deliberatedonkey.wordpress.com/2013/07/02/murder-and-more-through-the-eyes-of-a-child/
I grew up in a bad place, a bad area of town I now know to be bad, at the time I thought was heaven, at the time being a kid, I knew no better, it was my existence. Not until you walk away from something do we see it for what it is, not what we hoped or thought. I am called a ‘Writer’ these days but don’t see myself as such. People in my life will say ‘Oh Shaun you are a writer now’ In an instant I think ‘No I am not’ But I guess I am in some form. Had someone told me I was doing this at this moment in time in my life 20 years ago I would have done a bad deed. This was my life for a long time. I had a dysfunctional family, we were loved but hurt was always there, I guess young Shaun to the left in that boat refused to see or feel the hurt.

Little Shaun is circled in red bottom left, this was 'Family'

Little Shaun is circled in red bottom left, this was ‘Family’

This is ‘Ace News Services’ and I know many will be thinking “This isn’t news” Well let me explain this. Why I write this today. I want to help Ace News become global, this is my Editors design and I follow his lead, it’s why I closed ‘Shauny News’ with almost 1,000,000 (1 Million) hits in 5 months. See I never cared for ‘Well done’ or ‘Congratulations’ I guess I hate flattery. I have asked many times why this is and I always come back to the answer ‘Other people helped’ and this is true. If you are reading and you write also then isn’t what you write inspired by others? It is never about numbers of for me, it’s about quality. Quality over quantity. But for people to understand why I write as I do, I must share why I came to be today.
I am disabled now, yes I know, ‘Boo Hoo’ So I have time to sit and think and I am not my best company. What I mean is I get bored being alone, I am not good company for myself. Over time I found a source of company that many call ‘God’ and that is my source of not being alone. Many will go to Church or Read the bible or both, me? not yet I say. I have a relationship with God. I told my Mum the other day in a text, I don’t know if she believes me but I can only be me. The past can keep a person trapped in the past without them knowing or understanding. I let the past go, today I laugh, Smile and love life. Only when I am around certain people do I see the past again. I am trying to change this and I will. I just need time. Often a song can change us, define us, make us see something different, bring love to our door. This is my Song with my Partner. This song saved my life. My Partner showed me ‘Real Love’ a real life, a different life, a ‘Perfect Day’

Today I am no longer the tortured soul I once was after all the bad things I did. But I believe in Karma. I am in agony always, this is my Karma hurting me for the bad I did. I ask, what is your Karma? I am asking out loud not to one person. I said to a loved one, a person I would die for “You don’t know me” And I was right to say it, I said it in the wrong context. So I guess I should have said “We don’t know each other no more” But time heals all things I am sure of this. Only when we understand there are problems can we mend them. Sure I open my soul to the World a lot but I would rather be known for telling the truth, being Shaun and being honest. Why make yourself out to be something you ain’t? My 20 year old son left the family home 2 weeks ago now and I was deeply upset. A family member, saying what he felt needed said and meaning it in the right way said “Grow a pair” He may be right. But for me to change now would be an outcry on myself.

See, we are all alive, sadly some choose to become dead, dead to feelings, dead to the World and dead to themselves. I have never figured this out, but I will. I guess we all carry ourselves in a different way. Anyone with Fibro will know Fibro speaks for us sometimes. When stress happens, pain happens. For me to get people I truly love deeply to just understand that line, no more, no less, is hard. I need loved ones to know I smile, I am blessed, and I am happy. The past hauntes me, I can’t change the past so I don’t let it define me. It can haunt away, it won’t beat me. I can’t allow it. So here I am, love me, hate me, like me, struggle to understand me, whatever. Here I am!

This is Shaun, this is my life, this is why I write.

More love, less hate
Shaun

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UNICEF and War Child to be beneficiaries of Celtic FC Charity Match!


 

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War Child and UNICEF is what Celtic are helping in this game

Celtic Football Club, the club I write for were formed in 1888 as a Charitable club, 126 years on we as a club are still very proud of our ways. We are playing a game. Meastrio is an Ex player Paul McStay against Ex Manchester United player Rio Ferdinad’s side. It will be a 60,000 sell out at Celtic park and every penny will go to UNICEF and War Child  Being from Edinburgh and supporting Glasgow Celtic you get the odd idiot saying “Support a team from Edinburgh” But I love the Charity arm of Celtic Football club.

Celtic FC Foundation and the Rio Ferdinand Foundation today announced the beneficiaries of their ‘Maestrio’ legends’ charity match – McStay’s Maestros v Rio’s All Stars.

The unique event will take place at Celtic Park on Sunday, September 7 (KO: 2pm) and net proceeds will be split equally between Celtic FC Foundation and the Rio Ferdinand Foundation to support children and young people facing poverty and disadvantage at home and overseas. Celtic FC Foundation* have selected UNICEF and WAR CHILD as main beneficiaries and the Club’s charitable arm will assist in their humanitarian work in a number of current Middle East countries.   Funds will also assist local projects. However, one of Celtic’s principal areas of work will be to provide international aid and support through these well-respected charities.

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The Rio Ferdinand Foundation** will work with local community partners in both London and across Townships in South Africa to support and assist children, young people and families suffering the effects of poverty, violence and abuse on a day-to-day basis.

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The Thai Tims were kids Celtic helped with a School and education and more. We paid for them to visit Celtic Park! From Thailand to Scotland

Also they played in a huge hall, it was amazing to see where my Celtic money goes! We filled Concert halls for days 

Celtic FC Foundation CEO, Tony Hamilton, said: “From our living rooms we have all witnessed some of the terrible vivid horror of conflict in recent days and the particular effects that these events have had on children.   

“The work of UNICEF and War Child takes no sides but simply cares for all the innocent victims of conflict on a humanitarian level. The match in September will bring together some great names in football who want to make a difference. “We hope as many supporters as possible can join us to assist children and their families who so desperately need our help.”

Rio Ferdinand Foundation CEO, Gary Stannett MBE, said: “Children, young people and families are the future of any community, and we all have a responsibility and moral obligation to help wherever it is needed, either on our doorstep in Glasgow and London or internationally where conflict and absolute poverty are so visible. “Funds raised from the Maestrio match will support us in continuing our work that has the ongoing aims of eradicating the threat of poverty, violence and trauma towards our young people and provide much needed humanitarian relief in conflict areas. “It is absolutely fantastic for us to be involved in such a prestigious event and I would like to thank Celtic FC again and all the players who have given up their time, expertise and resources to make the Maestrio game happen.

“We are proud that the Rio Ferdinand Foundation can work with Celtic FC Foundation, War Child and UNICEF to change lives of young people and families around the world.” Jane Cooper, UNICEF UK Director of Communication, said: “UNICEF works to save and protect the rights of all children, no matter what their race, religion or background. “Many hundreds of thousands of children throughout the Middle East are living without access to basic life-saving essentials, such as food, clean water and shelter.

“We would like to thank Celtic for supporting our work in the region and helping to make these children’s lives a little bit better.” War Child CEO, Rob Williams, said: “We are delighted to have this support from Celtic FC Foundation. “The money raised will go towards helping some of the world’s most vulnerable children, who are facing the most brutal conflicts on a daily basis. As a non-political, impartial organisation we work to reach the children most in need through our child protection centres, through trauma counselling, and through maintaining their education. On behalf of War Child – thank you.”

‘Celtic FC are nothing without the fans’

This is inside Celtic park, I am in this area somewhere, AMAZING it is 

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Money raised by the people of Scotland will go to help these kids. Celtic fans are against oppression and Countries who commit Genocide and countries who are trapped, land locked

Tickets for the Maestrio Charity Match, sponsored by Flip and Magners, are now on general sale, priced at £10 for adults and £5 for concessions (maximum of 10 per person).  

They are available to purchase ONLINE, by calling 0871 226 1888***, by visiting the Celtic Ticket Office or the Club’s retail outlets at Argyle Street, Sauchiehall Street, Clydebank, Coatbridge or East Kilbride.

Premium tickets (£35) and corporate packages (£125) are also available by calling 0871 226 1888*** (option 4) or emailing matchdayhospitality@celticfc.co.uk

* Celtic FC Foundation is a registered charity in Scotland, number SC024648.

** Rio Ferdinand Foundation is a registered charity in England and Wales, number 1151127.

*** Calls cost up to 10p per minute, telecoms provider dependent.  Mobile and other provider charges may vary.  For customer enquiries relating to existing purchases only, please call 0141 551 4493.

My Daughter Starts School Tomorrow. An Honor in Bringing Kids up


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12345My little princess’s growing up and Daddy isn’t liking it. In a Country where showing or speaking of these feelings, being a man, can be tricky as people mock you 😀 I am different, I pride myself on not being “Normal” I decided a LONG time ago I was going to live my life the way I wanted and not how Society says we must. I was a Dad very young to two amazing young men (20/22 now they are), I was 17 then 19 a kid myself! My partner and I decided 7 years ago now to try for a kid. We went through some hurtful moments, but we got there. I watched as my Partner started to show signs a small person was inside her. I would lay and talk to her tummy and I think when the girls were born they knew my voice. The amazing (Probably not for a woman at times) time of being there to see your kid born is such an amazing thing. A little person appears, a little girl, Courtney we called her, and she changed our lives for the better. 18 Months later her little sister was Born, Chloe. Deep down I wanted a little girl, when my oldest Daughter was born it was utter joy, tears, hard tears of love and joy

Now 7 years on my oldest Daughter starts School tomorrow. We have got all her clothing and Schoolbag, lunchbox, pencil case, you name it, it’s there. Both my Partner and my own parents have been amazing in helping buy things. A team effort it was, lol. Tomorrow I don’t think I will cry, I will be proud though. Chloe starts 2nd year Nursery/Pre-School, Courtney goes to REAL School. Before Courtney went to bed we had a little chat on our own, a proper chat with this little bundle of emotions and love. She asked me “Daddy, is School fun” I said “Honey, school is amazing” She gave me a hug, a kiss “I love you lots Daddy” then went to back to bed. My heart broke. Not for bad reasons, but for a mixture of reasons. To have the privilege of having two baby girls and watch them grow up to be Sisters, friends, enemies, all love has been so far indescribable, I honestly can’t find a Word, it’s a feeling stronger than love and I don’t think there is a word for this feeling.

The pleasure and joy of watching two babies grow to throw pieces of Jigsaw at each other, cuddle and make up, play together, watch TV together, sit at a PC or Laptop together, watch silhouette-family-with-eclipse (1)them having fun out the back garden, has been a trip, a good one. Daddy want’s time to slow down. But we can’t be selfish, we must let go. With my two Sons, they are both at home “Just” There is talk of them moving out, and I am thinking “Spare room for an office, YES!” I am of course half joking. They are two gentlemen, We taught them life the best we could and still do, you never stop being a parent, my Mum told me that once. They are soon to fly the nest, I will cry but I know they are ready to take on the World.  The moments I had with my sons when they were little boys then teenagers was brilliant, all we did was Football. When I was manager, they were there supporting, when one was playing we were all, my Partner included, there to watch.

Now it’s time to do it all over again, teach 2 little bags of emotion and love how the World works. As parents do we give advice when we know they need it. There is no book on parenting and if someone wrote it, it would be useless. You parent with love but also instinct, you do it with unconditional love, to see that love given back, or to feel that love given back 4 times makes it all worthwhile.

So tomorrow another chapter of our lives takes another direction. We are ready for it, we will enjoy it and hold every moment as long as we can. Life is so fragile, we sadly have seen it the last few days with the death of Robin Williams and all the death and murder add genocide, we understand we MUST live in moments. We let yesterday go but never forget and we plant seeds for tomorrow, and in THIS moment we are smiling and happy, then life is amazing. I suffer badly with pain every day but all I have written has helped. A disability can easily destroy a relationship and the dynamics of a house. I have known my Partner since I was 12, we were best friends then we are best friends now. I hate sometimes when the pain is so hard to take I vent, but everyone in my home understands it’s not at them, I never do in-front of the girls, I just can’t, wouldn’t, would be unable to, even if I needed to. My oldest Courtney has picked up Daddy is 100% healthy and hurts, I tell her “Daddy has a sore knee from playing football” She is noticing things. For now, that is the story, she and her sister Chloe will know when the time is right, But in the meantime I will pray the Fibro will leave my body. I want to be as healthy looking as I can when I am out with them and take them to the school grounds, so I demand it of myself to take the pain, nothing is impossible if our heart truly desires it be

TO ANY PARENT, DO YOU FEEL AS I DO, OR AM I ALONE? I WOULD LOVE PEOPLE TO TELL ME x

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Patients’ families remember Robin Williams as ‘comedic Mother Theresa’


Robin Williams visits a sick child in a scene from the 1998 film 'Patch Adams'

Robin Williams visits a sick child in a scene from the 1998 film ‘Patch Adams’

As a medical student who used humor to help his patients, Robin Williams’ role in “Patch Adams” was touching and memorable. But his laughter-as-medicine approach wasn’t just limited to the silver screen. The kindness he brought to real-life patients, said their family members, was truly unforgettable. “He’s really the comedic Mother Theresa,” Garry Kravit said He would know. In 2001, Kravit’s nephew, David Buist, received a terrible diagnosis: hepatosplenic T-cell lymphoma. This aggressive form of cancer is so rare that, according to the National Institutes of Health, “standard treatment has yet to be established.”

Kravit’s nephew met the devastating diagnosis with determination. “David said that he didn’t want to just disappear” Kravit said in a CNN iReport submission, “and decided that he would help build a new Ronald McDonald house in New York before anything happened to him.” Kravit, who met Williams at an event, reached out asking for autographed items to help with the fund-raising effort. Williams did that– and much more.

Calls that made a difference

As Buist’s condition deteriorated, Williams would call him, Kravit recalled. “When David was suffering at his worst, Robin would call him to perk him up. David treasured Robin’s calls and it helped to push him forward,” he said. After Buist left New York’s Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center, Williams invited the pair to a taping of a standup comedy special in 2004. “He hugged him and spent 20 minutes with him. He didn’t care about anything but David,” Kravit said. Buist beat his cancer and is now married with children. “Robin Williams touched people’s lives in ways so significant and wonderful that it very well could be that he wasn’t even aware of how much good he did,” Kravit said.

A day to remember

Mark Cole has a similar story. He wrote to CNN iReport about the time Williams visited his daughter, who doctors said was terminally-ill. “He made her feel very special all day; it was just one-on-one” Cole said. “He really wanted to spend time with Jessica.” That visit, also in 2004, came when his daughter Jessica had only weeks left to live. Through The Make-a-Wish Foundation, she requested a visit with Williams. The 13-year-old loved the film “Mrs. Doubtfire.” But Jessica, stricken with a brain tumor, couldn’t make the trip to see the actor; her health was too fragile. So, the actor chartered a private plane to come to her Greensboro, North Carolina, home. “It must have cost $30,000, $40,000,” Cole said. Given her medical state, the girl initially had trouble understanding who she was seeing, Cole recalled. But once Williams started with the “Mrs. Doubtfire” impressions, Jessica lit up. Cole said the actor spent the whole day cracking jokes, watching a Carolina Panthers game and playing cards with Jessica. “I couldn’t believe it,” he said. “I felt very privileged that he came to spend the day with her like that. It was the most moving thing I’ve ever seen in my life.” Jessica passed away about two weeks later.

A stunning blow

Cole said when he heard about Robin Williams death, “I cried for half an hour.” “You don’t meet very many good people like that.” The actor’s death Monday at age 63 was a stunning blow not just to his fans but for patients he brought smiles to. He was a long-time supporter of St. Jude Children’s Research Hospital, appearing in multiple campaigns for the facility. “Mr. Williams generously gave his time to raise awareness and funds for St. Jude and for our patients battling childhood cancer,” the hospital said in a statement. “His humor brought bright smiles and laughter to our patients and families and his generosity deeply touched the hearts of all who knew him.”