2 Awards with love attached – Monther who lost her Daughtery – WordPress Family


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“Keeping The Memory Of Vicky Bruce Alive Award”

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By @ShaunyGibson – Used to be @ ShaunyNews

Shaun here, I don’t do awards any more. I stumbled across this article I did JUST as I was closing my own personal blog. I thought I would re-send as I just spotted a few comments on ShaunyNews I don’t use any more. So with the approval of my Editor I hope this is ok. It just feels right. If you accept awards, please accept these two. I made both. One was to thank people for giving me awards the other for Tersia. As we near Christmas I guess I am thinking about people more than usual. This is a blog I did on November 3rd. I now write here https://acenewsdesk.wordpress.com as ShaunyNews is closed as a working blog.

IN MEMORY OF VICKY BRUCE

The purpose of any Hospice is death with dignity. Our mission is to provide love and support to our dying patients and their loved ones.

The purpose of any Hospice is death with dignity. Our mission is to provide love and support to our dying patients and their loved ones.

When I joined WordPress 18 Months/2 Years ago, being new to the whole working of WordPress I used to read more than I wrote. I stumbled across this article by a Mother who lost the unthinkable, her beautiful Daughter. The link below the “Vic has left home for the last time/ is the link when her darling child passed. I remember sitting at my laptop on my lazyboy chair all cuddled into Dawn my better half, Tersia will remember me saying all this. Dawn was curious as to what I was writing and right behind me and helped me understand WordPress. We clicked a few links, then http://tersiaburger.com/2013/01/25/vic-has-left-home-for-the-last-time/ appeared and Dawn and I started to read. At first we were drinking tea, smoking cigarettes, usual nighty stuff, then as we red more the cups and ashtrays went down and we hugged harder. At the end Dawn and I were in bits, we cried hard for a good 10 minutes, I told Tersia and we kinda became friends over time we drifted apart, but friendship takes two, and I have been a bad friend to many on WordPress, anyway. We have four kids, two Sons aged 22 and 20, two Daughters 4 and 5. We nearly lost my 22 year old son about 3 years ago now; he had been suffering for a few years in late teens with seizures, Dawn and I couldn’t sleep after he had a seizure, Dawn would sometimes sleep on the floor next to our son, I would stay awake listening. Back to Tersia. I ask you please WordPress to PLEASE ACCEPT THE ABOVE “Keeping The Memory Of Vicky Bruce Alive Memorial” But please Read, Tersia’s link above, It was built as a place of love in South Africa where people were not alone in the darkest of the dark. It is called ‘Stepping Stone’“A place where the terminally ill will be cared for with love, respect and kindness …” I PRAY YOU GIVE TERSIA’S STORAY A READ. She is such an inspiration to me, she will be to you also. 🙂

A picture of Vicky cemented at the doorway of "Stepping Stone" Vicky welcomes everyone in. How amazing? <3

A picture of Vicky cemented at the doorway of “Stepping Stone” Vicky welcomes everyone in. How amazing?

Tersia was, is, in pain, but from that pain, that moment none of us want to live, she built something that will keep Vicky and Tersia alive for ever. Tersia was down but she was not out. What that amazing, inspirational woman did broke my heart and healed it again, then it broke again for Tersia. I was there late but at the time I like to think I was there for Tersia, all I can do is hope I helped even once. What was built was a place to help other people and this will stand the test of time due to Vicky and Tersia, I know it will. http://albertonrecord.co.za/13943/hospice-opens-in-alberton/

Angel Child Vicky with her Mum, Tersia x

Angel Child Vicky with her Mum, Tersia x

Song for Vicky x 

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WordPress Family Award

Created by me on June 24th 2013

Created by me on June 24th 2013

I had been on WordPress say? A year at this point. I used to accept Awards, they excited me. I won “Blog of 2013” The offical website confirmed I was first to get 6 stars. I had 200+ Awards, now all gone. I still thank every person for every Award but, how we say? Awards for writing are often given out ‘Just Because’ These 2 Awards or Memorials mean something. The ‘IN MEMORY OF VICKY BRUCE’ to this day and all the days will have a special place in my soul and my heart. As said, Dawn, my Partner and I read it together and we cried hugging each other. It was a ‘Moment’ Moments come at us all, often the moment can be good, or it can be bad or just a moment we enjoy. All weekend I was in bed, I have not been this sore for, well ever. My Amazing friend Anne from New York has been an amazing friend sitting up till silly ‘O Clock speaking to me, allowing me to talk and vent and it does help. So Anne, you an an Aunt from another Granny (Kinda like ‘Brother from another Mother’) 😀  This is Anne’s blog http://talesalongtheway.com/ PLEASE PLEASE GO VISIT ANNE! She is an amazing woman with a caring loving heart!

I personally wish I didn’t allow medication to dictate me falling out with people, I don’t do hate, I do love and caring. Sadly Fibro & Medication speaks for sufferers sometimes – Hell!

I created this Award with the help of my oldest son, the image is actually Dawn, Chloe (Dawn’s left) and Courtney at the far right. I am holding a little boy, that little boy has a special place in my heart. He is ‘Almost’ family, he nearly died as a baby and we got friendly with the kids parents due to meeting twice in a Chronic Pain clinic. We hit it off, they are the ones who took the image. So this image, again is a ‘Moment’ Life is just a collection of moments we try and grab and hold or get through best we can. I made it from the Heart. Everyone was giving me Awards at the time and I thought “I want to leave a mark on WordPress before I leave” and that is it. When I eventually find my new calling this blog will close and my love and caring nature will go elsewhere. Or I may write here all my life, we can’t know or say for sure. All I know is I don’t ‘REALLY’ want to do this for the rest of my life. I had a Dr out on Sunday mid-day. In Scotland Dr’s come to your house at out of hours, nights and weekends if you can’t go to a hospital or it’s a waste of time to go to the Hospital. They have Dr’s car or a Dr’s motorbike packed with everything a Dr would need.

Dr on a Motorbike, brilliant medial care in Scotland

Dr on a Motorbike, brilliant medial care in Scotland

I called, sorry Dawn called at around 11:30am because I couldn’t move any of my body. I was on my left side so all I could do was send a Facebook message tagging in Dawn and my Sons in the hope one of them were on the internnet on a Laptop/Tablet or Phone, an hour or so passed before anyone came through, this time I was in tears. Dawn right away called NHS24 – http://www.nhs24.com/ This is an AMAZING service for the sick and disabled in Scotland, on a Sunday I had to wait around 40 minutes for the Dr on a Motor Bike to arrive. What the Dr didn’t want to do was give me medication until she was 100% sure nothing else was wrong. So I got full blood work up, she had a small machine, takes 10 minutes, blood pressure taken, heart checked, basically a good check over. Once she seen it was the Fibro she injected 50ml of Morphine into the top of my spine, right at the bottom of my neck at the back, it was AGONY the needle going in, she had to get it into my central nervous system. Then I was sleepy for hours. So this “Word Press Family Award” is for all the people who have came and stayed or came and left due to WHATEVER reason. In all the time I have been here I have got friendly with hundreds of people and lost friendship with 7 people for good, or until they or I say “Hey” I am open to talking to anyone. So this Award  and the one above I offer to all the people below. Many will have both the Award and the Memorial. If you have both I ask you please just give it to 10 people.

Rules:
1. Pick 10 people to give both award to. Remember and add the Awards to the 10 people you choose when tagging them into your Award/Memorial to others.
2. Give them The “WordPress Famly Award” and the “Memorial” for Vicky and Tersia.If you have trouble, please add me to one of the Facebook groups I run below, I will happily help
3. Give both Awards to these 10 people. By accepting this 1 Award and 1 Memorial you agree to give to 10 other people. I am giving this to over 100 people.
4. All I ask is you copy Tersia’s blog address and add it when you pass this on. I have a TON of people I want to give this too.
So without anymore talking. Thank you for accepting (In Advance) if you don’t accept either can you at l least tell me please? All I am asking. For anyone new to Awards, you have to host the image here:
http://tinypic.com/ Go to Dashboard, widgets, add an “Image box” to the right of the page. Then add the URL for the Awards and they will show EXACTLY like the items I have on the right of my blog

Here are the people I award the Award and Memorial for Teria and Vicky x

 

More love

Less hate

Mean it!

Shaun

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TO THE PEOPLE I DON'T TALK WITH ANY MORE - REGRETTE IS A HORRIBLE THING RIGHT?

TO THE PEOPLE I DON’T TALK WITH ANY MORE – REGRETTE IS A HORRIBLE THING RIGHT?

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Lynda Bellingham loses her battle with Cancer


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Actress best known for role as mother in long-running Oxo adverts

By Shaun Gibson : @ShaunyNews

Actress and presenter Lynda Bellingham died yesterday in her husband Michael’s arms, her agent has said. The 66-year-old star, best known for her long-running role as a mother in the Oxo TV adverts, had been battling colon cancer, which later spread to her lungs and liver, since being diagnosed in July last year. The actress said she decided to end her treatment on August 13 to limit the amount of suffering her family would witness.

She said that she wanted to have some control back over the remainder of her life after being left desperately ill by the gruelling chemo sessions. In a statement on behalf of Bellingham’s family, her agent, Sue Latimer, said this morning: ‘Lynda died peacefully in her husband’s arms yesterday at a London hospital. ‘Her family would like to thank the nurses and staff for their tremendous care and support. Actor, writer and presenter – to the end Lynda was a consummate professional.’

The tragic news came just days after the 66-year-old made an emotional return to TV show Loose Women for one final appearance and told a fellow presenter: ‘Please don’t cry… it will be fine.’ Celebrities paid tribute to Bellingham on Twitter this morning, with Phillip Schofield tweeting: RIP Gorgeous Lynda Bellingham xx’ Actor Simon Pegg, who starred with the actress in 1990s TV show Faith In The Future, said: ‘Lynda Bellingham, a gorgeous, brassy, funny, generous, talented human being. My first TV mother figure and a treasured friend.’

She died in her Husbands arms

She died in her Husbands arms

Actress and presenter Amanda Holden wrote: ‘So devastated to hear the news about the beautiful Lynda Bellingham.’ Kirstie Allsopp said: ‘Lynda Bellingham, she was an inspiration, she so wanted to make it to Christmas, if you’re working towards that, don’t give up hope. Fellow presenter Ben Shephard said: ‘So so sad to hear that the gorgeous Lynda Bellingham has passed away. She was just wonderful to be around and will be sorely missed.’ Bellingham’s decision to end her treatment was revealed in a newspaper serialisation of her forthcoming autobiography. She had said she would like to see one last Christmas.

Bellingham said: ‘The decision to give up chemo was a huge relief because I took back some control of myself. It’s there on the table if I want it. ‘I don’t want the boys or my husband to see me die a little sad old lady. I want to go out there as I am.’

She was awarded an OBE in 2013 for charity work, and wrote her memoirs and a novel. She married three times and is survived by her two sons.

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Lynda was best known as the mother in the Oxo adverts – which appeared on TV screens for two decades

She said she wanted her autobiography to be ‘uplifting’, adding: ‘I wrote the book for everybody out there. ‘It’s not supposed to be an embarrassing account of me having terminal cancer. ‘I wanted to write it for everybody who is given that curveball and say of course there are no answers but, if you can, take it and make it positive and talk about dying. ‘If two people read this book and think ‘Actually, that’s how I feel and I’m not on my own’, then I’ll have done something half decent.’ Bellingham, who took part in the 2009 series of Strictly Come Dancing, was also a panellist on ITV show Loose Women in recent years. In a special farewell episode of the ITV show, which is yet to air, in which she received a standing ovation. She also presented a number of other programmes, following an acting career which saw her star in dramas such as At Home With The Braithwaites and The Bill. Lynda’s most famous role in the Oxo adverts kept her on British TV screens for almost two decades.

The actress was diagnosed with colon cancer little over a year ago, which later spread to her lungs and liver. She was born in Montreal on May 31, 1948 after her father, an airline pilot, moved there for work, but she grew up near Aylesbury in Buckinghamshire. She got her first taste of stage success at school before going on to study at the Central School of Speech and Drama, followed by a steady succession of roles in theatre, film and television. Prominent parts included playing Helen Herriot in All Creatures Great And Small, and the title role in sitcom Faith In The Future. On stage, she appeared at the Old Vic and the Royal Court and in the West End production of Calendar Girls.

Lynda in a 1983 Oxo advert alongside on-screen daughter Alison Reynolds, on-screen husband Michael Redfern and on-screen sons Jason Norman and Nicholas Stroud

Lynda in a 1983 Oxo advert alongside on-screen daughter Alison Reynolds, on-screen husband Michael Redfern and on-screen sons Jason Norman and Nicholas Stroud

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Are You Waking Up To Something You Don’t Understand? – Test Your Soul Here


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By Shaun Gibson : @ShaunyNews

All around me, for the first time ever I am seeing people waking up, waking  up to a World we don’t understand. People I speak to who used to ‘mock’ this talk are now agreeing or saying ‘Yeah I feel it’ So we ask simply  “What is IT” Well let’s look at some signs and you can tell me if you are awake or not. Call it a mini experiment if you can

There is no doubt the Earth is evolving spiritually. People are experiencing intense changes within their life, work, behaviors and personal relationships. Many are awakening at a rate that can only be described as phenomenal. So how do we know if we are awakening? Here are 25 common characteristics you may find in yourself and others. Some of you may experience things not on this list and I encourage you to share your experiences in the comments below. We are all unique and many of us are experiencing phenomenon that are difficult to explain at this time. We are all learning from each other.

I don’t read many books but do read a LOT on-line, I can read the same page for hours while I listen to music. Knowledge = Power of the mind = Knowing things, gut feelings, just a strange knowing. I did this blog here and many got back to me to say “I really understand you Shaun” http://shaunynews.com/2014/05/25/star-children-and-adults-who-are-different/ I recently discovered a huge untapped energy to the stars. Now before you beat me with the silly stick hold on. This is not just me, or why would images like these exist and websites likes the ones below exist? I woke up to a truth that was so brilliant I actually struggle to put it into Words. I do try, but fail. It isn’t a word, it’s a feeling, a connection, a knowing, it is surreal to say the least

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Open Your Mind – Transformational/Motivational Subliminal Video

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1. Being in public places is sometimes overwhelming. Since our walls between self and other are dissolving, we haven’t really learned to distinguish between someone else’s energy and our own. If the general mood of the crowd is herd-like or negative, we can feel this acutely, and may feel like retreating into our own private space. When we have recharged our batteries with meditation, spending time in nature, far away from other people, or just sitting in quiet contemplation, we are ready to be with the masses again. In personal relationships, we often will feel someone else’s emotions as our own. It is important to have this higher sense of empathy, but we must learn to allow another person’s emotions while observing them and keeping our empathy, but, realizing that not all emotions belong to us. Social influence can dampen our own innate wisdom.

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2. We understand our current paradigm, more than we understand ourselves. We see the big picture and marvel and the duality of our world including why polarity consciousness has brought us to where it has today. We no longer see life choices and right or wrong, good or bad, just choices defined by the neutral frequencies that we later define. Unity consciousness is allowing us to spread the message of unity consciousness to all of humanity that will allow us to heal our division and change the misery of our human beings to abundance within a global community filled with love for each other and not fear of each other.

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3. We know things without having to intellectually figure them out. Often called intuitive awareness, we have ‘a-ha’ moments and insights that can explain some of the most complex theories or phenomenon in the world. Some of the most brilliant minds of our time just ‘know.’ Adepts and sages often were given downloads of information from higher states of consciousness after meditating or being in the presence of a more conscious individual; this is happening for more people with more frequency. As we trust our intuition more often, it grows stronger. This is a time of ‘thinking’ with our hearts more than our heads. Our guts will no longer be ignored. Our dreams are becoming precognitive and eventually our conscious thoughts will be as well.

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4. We acknowledge our imperfection and how beautiful it is to be an imperfect version of our true selves. We thrive on challenging only ourselves, and not through competition at the expense of another, especially since we have no need to judge those who are exactly where they need to be.

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5. Watching television or most of main stream media, including newspapers and many Hollywood movies is very distasteful to us. The mindset that creates much, but not all, of the programming on television and in cinema is abhorrent. It commodifies people and promotes violence. It reduces our intelligence and numbs our natural empathetic response to someone in pain.

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6. We no longer have a need to attach our love to material things, understanding that it only leads to misery because we are not learning to love ourselves and others. The mentality only leads to further acquisition of more things. Although things too are part of consciousness, they do not allow humans to accelerate the mass consciousness required to change the world. Only love for ourselves and others can do that. Love is knowing the deservability and worthiness of all. We are loved so unconditionally by Creation that we can even choose to believe that we are not loved.

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7. Lying to us is nearly impossible. We may not know exactly what truth you are withholding, but we can also tell that something isn’t right. We also know when you have other emotions, pain, love, etc. that you aren’t expressing. You’re an open book to us. We aren’t trained in counter-intelligence, we are just observant and knowing. While we may pick up on physical cues, we can look into your eyes and know what you are feeling.

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8. We may pick up symptoms of your cold, just like men who get morning sickness when their wives are pregnant. Sympathy pains, whether emotional or physical, are something we experience often. We tend to absorb emotion through the solar plexus, considered the place we ‘stomach emotion’ so as we learn to strengthen this chakra center, we may sometimes develop digestive issues. Grounding to the earth can help to re-establish our emotional center. Walking barefoot is a great way to re-ground.

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9. We tend to root for the underdog, those without voices, those who have been beaten down by the matrix, etc. We are very compassionate people, and these marginalized individuals often need more love. People can sense our loving hearts, so complete strangers will often tell us their life stories or approach us with their problems. While we don’t want to be a dumping ground for everyone’s issues, we are also a good ear for those working through their stuff.

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10. We don’t feel the need to awaken every person we see. Within a few sentences we can interpret their level of comfort in discussions relating to consciousness. When necessary, we plant a seed and if it’s meant to grow it will. We understand that attempting to awaken those who are not ready is toxic to their sensibilities.

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11. If we don’t learn how to set proper boundaries, we can get tired easily from taking on other people’s emotions. Energy Vampires are drawn to us like flies to paper, so we need to be extra vigilant in protecting ourselves at times.

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12. We are all becoming healers. We naturally gravitate toward healing fields, acupuncture, reiki, Qi-Gong, yoga, massage, midwifery, etc. are fields we often find ourselves in. We know that the collective needs to be healed, and so we try our best to offer healing in whatever form we are most drawn to. We also turn away from the ‘traditional’ forms of healing ourselves. Preferring natural foods, herbs, and holistic medicine as ways to cure every ailment.

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13. We see the possibilities before others do. Just like when the church told Copernicus he was wrong, and he stood by his heliocentric theory, we know what the masses refuse to believe. Our minds are light-years ahead.

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14. We are creative. We sing, dance, paint, invent, or write. We have amazing imaginations.

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15. We fully accept that we can only attract what is within our vibrational field. There are no experiences that we can obtain in physical form without attracting them from a vibrational perspective. That includes the most horrific experiences and the most beautiful ones. What we are learning to do is accept relationships and experiences for what they are. People and experiences are serving as reflections to teach us something about ourselves.

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16. We don’t question what love is, why it is or how it presents itself. We know it is everywhere, in everyone and everything, all permeating and infinite.

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17. We require more solitude than the average person.

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18. We might get bored easily, but we are really good at entertaining ourselves.

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19. We have a difficult time doing things we don’t want to do or don’t really enjoy. We really do believe life was meant to be an expression of joy. Why waste it doing something you hate? We aren’t lazy, we are discerning.

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20. We are obsessed with bringing the truth to light.

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21. We don’t live in fear of anything. Any and all changes coming, no matter how much they are perceived as negative or dramatic on our Earth, are being designed by us. We have past the point of no return and the Earth is ascending to a higher state of consciousness. Nothing will stop it now

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22. We can’t keep track of time. Our imaginations often get away with us and a day can feel like a minute, a week, a day.

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23. We abhor routine.

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24. We often disagree with authority (for obvious reasons). Some people call it “anarchy” without a true understanding of what that word or our governments really are.

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25. We will often be kind, but if you are egotistical or rude, we won’t spend much time with you or find an excuse to not hang out with people who are obsessed with themselves. We don’t ‘get’ people who are insensitive to other people’s feelings or points of view.

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My Daughter Starts School Tomorrow. An Honor in Bringing Kids up


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12345My little princess’s growing up and Daddy isn’t liking it. In a Country where showing or speaking of these feelings, being a man, can be tricky as people mock you 😀 I am different, I pride myself on not being “Normal” I decided a LONG time ago I was going to live my life the way I wanted and not how Society says we must. I was a Dad very young to two amazing young men (20/22 now they are), I was 17 then 19 a kid myself! My partner and I decided 7 years ago now to try for a kid. We went through some hurtful moments, but we got there. I watched as my Partner started to show signs a small person was inside her. I would lay and talk to her tummy and I think when the girls were born they knew my voice. The amazing (Probably not for a woman at times) time of being there to see your kid born is such an amazing thing. A little person appears, a little girl, Courtney we called her, and she changed our lives for the better. 18 Months later her little sister was Born, Chloe. Deep down I wanted a little girl, when my oldest Daughter was born it was utter joy, tears, hard tears of love and joy

Now 7 years on my oldest Daughter starts School tomorrow. We have got all her clothing and Schoolbag, lunchbox, pencil case, you name it, it’s there. Both my Partner and my own parents have been amazing in helping buy things. A team effort it was, lol. Tomorrow I don’t think I will cry, I will be proud though. Chloe starts 2nd year Nursery/Pre-School, Courtney goes to REAL School. Before Courtney went to bed we had a little chat on our own, a proper chat with this little bundle of emotions and love. She asked me “Daddy, is School fun” I said “Honey, school is amazing” She gave me a hug, a kiss “I love you lots Daddy” then went to back to bed. My heart broke. Not for bad reasons, but for a mixture of reasons. To have the privilege of having two baby girls and watch them grow up to be Sisters, friends, enemies, all love has been so far indescribable, I honestly can’t find a Word, it’s a feeling stronger than love and I don’t think there is a word for this feeling.

The pleasure and joy of watching two babies grow to throw pieces of Jigsaw at each other, cuddle and make up, play together, watch TV together, sit at a PC or Laptop together, watch silhouette-family-with-eclipse (1)them having fun out the back garden, has been a trip, a good one. Daddy want’s time to slow down. But we can’t be selfish, we must let go. With my two Sons, they are both at home “Just” There is talk of them moving out, and I am thinking “Spare room for an office, YES!” I am of course half joking. They are two gentlemen, We taught them life the best we could and still do, you never stop being a parent, my Mum told me that once. They are soon to fly the nest, I will cry but I know they are ready to take on the World.  The moments I had with my sons when they were little boys then teenagers was brilliant, all we did was Football. When I was manager, they were there supporting, when one was playing we were all, my Partner included, there to watch.

Now it’s time to do it all over again, teach 2 little bags of emotion and love how the World works. As parents do we give advice when we know they need it. There is no book on parenting and if someone wrote it, it would be useless. You parent with love but also instinct, you do it with unconditional love, to see that love given back, or to feel that love given back 4 times makes it all worthwhile.

So tomorrow another chapter of our lives takes another direction. We are ready for it, we will enjoy it and hold every moment as long as we can. Life is so fragile, we sadly have seen it the last few days with the death of Robin Williams and all the death and murder add genocide, we understand we MUST live in moments. We let yesterday go but never forget and we plant seeds for tomorrow, and in THIS moment we are smiling and happy, then life is amazing. I suffer badly with pain every day but all I have written has helped. A disability can easily destroy a relationship and the dynamics of a house. I have known my Partner since I was 12, we were best friends then we are best friends now. I hate sometimes when the pain is so hard to take I vent, but everyone in my home understands it’s not at them, I never do in-front of the girls, I just can’t, wouldn’t, would be unable to, even if I needed to. My oldest Courtney has picked up Daddy is 100% healthy and hurts, I tell her “Daddy has a sore knee from playing football” She is noticing things. For now, that is the story, she and her sister Chloe will know when the time is right, But in the meantime I will pray the Fibro will leave my body. I want to be as healthy looking as I can when I am out with them and take them to the school grounds, so I demand it of myself to take the pain, nothing is impossible if our heart truly desires it be

TO ANY PARENT, DO YOU FEEL AS I DO, OR AM I ALONE? I WOULD LOVE PEOPLE TO TELL ME x

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Patients’ families remember Robin Williams as ‘comedic Mother Theresa’


Robin Williams visits a sick child in a scene from the 1998 film 'Patch Adams'

Robin Williams visits a sick child in a scene from the 1998 film ‘Patch Adams’

As a medical student who used humor to help his patients, Robin Williams’ role in “Patch Adams” was touching and memorable. But his laughter-as-medicine approach wasn’t just limited to the silver screen. The kindness he brought to real-life patients, said their family members, was truly unforgettable. “He’s really the comedic Mother Theresa,” Garry Kravit said He would know. In 2001, Kravit’s nephew, David Buist, received a terrible diagnosis: hepatosplenic T-cell lymphoma. This aggressive form of cancer is so rare that, according to the National Institutes of Health, “standard treatment has yet to be established.”

Kravit’s nephew met the devastating diagnosis with determination. “David said that he didn’t want to just disappear” Kravit said in a CNN iReport submission, “and decided that he would help build a new Ronald McDonald house in New York before anything happened to him.” Kravit, who met Williams at an event, reached out asking for autographed items to help with the fund-raising effort. Williams did that– and much more.

Calls that made a difference

As Buist’s condition deteriorated, Williams would call him, Kravit recalled. “When David was suffering at his worst, Robin would call him to perk him up. David treasured Robin’s calls and it helped to push him forward,” he said. After Buist left New York’s Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center, Williams invited the pair to a taping of a standup comedy special in 2004. “He hugged him and spent 20 minutes with him. He didn’t care about anything but David,” Kravit said. Buist beat his cancer and is now married with children. “Robin Williams touched people’s lives in ways so significant and wonderful that it very well could be that he wasn’t even aware of how much good he did,” Kravit said.

A day to remember

Mark Cole has a similar story. He wrote to CNN iReport about the time Williams visited his daughter, who doctors said was terminally-ill. “He made her feel very special all day; it was just one-on-one” Cole said. “He really wanted to spend time with Jessica.” That visit, also in 2004, came when his daughter Jessica had only weeks left to live. Through The Make-a-Wish Foundation, she requested a visit with Williams. The 13-year-old loved the film “Mrs. Doubtfire.” But Jessica, stricken with a brain tumor, couldn’t make the trip to see the actor; her health was too fragile. So, the actor chartered a private plane to come to her Greensboro, North Carolina, home. “It must have cost $30,000, $40,000,” Cole said. Given her medical state, the girl initially had trouble understanding who she was seeing, Cole recalled. But once Williams started with the “Mrs. Doubtfire” impressions, Jessica lit up. Cole said the actor spent the whole day cracking jokes, watching a Carolina Panthers game and playing cards with Jessica. “I couldn’t believe it,” he said. “I felt very privileged that he came to spend the day with her like that. It was the most moving thing I’ve ever seen in my life.” Jessica passed away about two weeks later.

A stunning blow

Cole said when he heard about Robin Williams death, “I cried for half an hour.” “You don’t meet very many good people like that.” The actor’s death Monday at age 63 was a stunning blow not just to his fans but for patients he brought smiles to. He was a long-time supporter of St. Jude Children’s Research Hospital, appearing in multiple campaigns for the facility. “Mr. Williams generously gave his time to raise awareness and funds for St. Jude and for our patients battling childhood cancer,” the hospital said in a statement. “His humor brought bright smiles and laughter to our patients and families and his generosity deeply touched the hearts of all who knew him.”